growing up

happy saturday fellow and fellas!

first of all, i want to apologize for my absence (about 3 months already) :( i think i have nothing to say besides the word "sorry"

but, i still cant understand why people still asking about when will my blog be updated.

and im like: "omo. almost everything i have written is all about nonsense, unimportant, weird things. why??!"

yet, i still feel so grateful that some people are enjoy reading my blog.

yeaaa. thankyou everybody who always encourage me to continue writing here. couldnt mention all of you, but i really appreciate it :) love you all!!

as you already seen on the title,

"growing up"

maybe many of you would say that growing up is natural.

i used to think that growing up means that i could get my ID card, i could enter Casino (i always want to), and the other cool things to do.

of course i wont say that im mature enough now (obviously)

hahaha

i always think that i dont want to grow up.

not because i cant play around like i always did when im a kid.

not because all the responbilities

but, i just hate losing things.

time wont slow down for everyone not even for the president.

24 hours is all we got, how we spend it is depend on ourselves

one by one of your friends, acquaintances, even your family gonna leave you.

we dont know, how long we could live. maybe in 10 years or 5, or even 1 day? who knows?

the fear of the unknown is the greatest fear of all

the second reason is:

i know im being childish all the time and im such a stubborn,

but at least i know, im not fake.

if growing up means you have to fake the smile, fake the relationship, badmouthing about your friends, nag all the day, thinking about the needs to make everyone loves you, then i dont want to grow up.

i may not pretty, i may not smart, but im happy being 'me'

im not saying that all the grown up people are bad, but, i wish that i wont grow up to be the "bad" adult.

well, i do agree when people said that "a pretty face is nothing if you have an ugly heart"

im just not ready to grow up :(