boredom of my life

i thought i really have no idea about what to write here
and, finally i know what to share.
its called "boredom of my life"
today is the l a s t d a y o f h o l i d a y. for me. lol. actually school is begin today but i take extra one day holiday just for me. hehe
you might be curious why i mention it as "boredom of my life"
do you ever feel so empty? that you know there is nothing you can do to fulfill the emptiness in your soul. i know you must ever had that feeling.
that was what happened to me these days.
stay awake till the dawn, and still sleeping till the afternoon. wake up for eat, watching youtube, liking instagram's photos, and then sleep again till the evening. take a bath, watching youtube, liking instagram's photos, and repeat it again and again.
and also, nothing to do is the main reason that makes me thinking about my grandfather that had been passed away.
as i ever said, i still cant believe it. when he died, none of us touch him, thats what made me always think, what if he hasn't die, we should have bring him to the hospital, why we easily think that he is gone. nobody can even be so sure about that. i felt so sad that day. depend on our tradition, the body must be placed at home for a week. so, a doctor come to put in some formalin. from that time on, i started to accept the truth. that he will never be awake anymore. and then, the day that the coffin come, and the day we tomb the body. things really feel like a dream. again. in the evening we take ferry to batam, on the way home, i think and think again. why cant i just accept the truth that he is gone. every beginning has the end. right?
i know it's bad for talking about someone who has been gone, but..
idk why i suddenly talking about my grandfather again. so sorry.