im back!

hello folks!
im really in the mood of writing now, haha after i know that there is actually a single person (initial J!!!) that read my blog. Wow! i really appreciate that. even if i know i just type some random things, but hope you guys like it!
by the way, do you guys already know that our national exam result has come out? and i (think that i) get pretty satisfied result. (bcs i thought i will fail, gratefully i do pass all the subjects)

and now! its time to think about another problem.
i have been accepted in sunway university and got 25% of scholarship. thats a good news actually. really. and  now i try to apply for 50% scholarship. wish me luck. i know most people dont really get it when they see me trying so hard to get this. you should know that for me, study overseas is not cheap. obviously not cheap. and i dont want to burden my parents.
and here it comes another problem. i still cant get over my cowardness, that im too shy to communicate in english. i get too nervous that i cant even speak properly to my teacher or friends or even just to buy a drink, that i suddenly forget every vocabs i know, even the easy one.
...im screwed

lets get another topic. hey, suddenly a weird thought come to my mind.

tell me, what kind of boy or girl that u like? like what is the most important aspect that you want to see in a person?

wait, if you say you dont mind the appearance, pls dont say anything.
bcs there is no way i will believe it. so you say youre not that kind of person? really?
if the person is an (sorry) obese person and a very dirty one or even someone with a very bad body odor, weird and really weird.
i bet you wont even get close to him/her. okay, i know that there is someone out there that is not this kind of person, but, i havent met one. so, yup. if there is one, he/she must be one in billions.
so, doesnt mean i only like the handsome one. but, at least you should be neat and tidy.
of course good looking is a bonus. but thats not the main point.
thats enough for appearance, and what about the character?
i obviously wont say that i love someone for no reason, there should be at least one reason!
maybe he can makes you laugh, or he just makes you feel really happy in every moment.
and (in case you wanna know) what i am looking for in a man (yup, a man. bcs i dont need a boy. lol) is a man who can makes me feel warm and safe.
haha learn from the past. dont overly love a person that makes your heart beat fast. you gonna hurt yourself.

goodnight!